I had been on bedrest for 6 weeks, gained an obscene amount of weight, then was rushed to the hospital to have an emergency C-section to deliver premature twins. That first week in the hospital was a complete blur, between the NICU and figuring out breastfeeding preemies all while trying to care for 3 other children and get some sleep in there somewhere.
When we finally did make it home, I was spending 1 ½ hours out of every 3 nursing, pumping, bottle feeding, and then trying to catch a little sleep before it all started again.
It was one night somewhere near 2 am as I was feeding a little one, struggling to keep my eyes open. I was trying to remember which twin I was feeding. With the blur of an info-mercial for Yoga Booty Ballet, looking down at my still distended belly squeezed into the only sweats that I could pull on (which had spit up on them), I sat wondering to myself,
What in the world am I doing? This is SO not what I signed up for!
It is in those moments as a mother that it is the most challenging, and we find ourselves asking the questions:Why am I here? Why am I doing this? Does any of this matter? Does my life count for anything at all?
I am here to tell you that it does. Your life and your job as a mother do matter. I want to take you on a journey to cultivate a heart for mothering. I want to share with you the BIG VISION first, so you can get a glimpse of what mothering can mean both now and for the future. Then, once you are inspired, I want to give you lots of practical tips for how to carry it out in your daily life. Don’t get overwhelmed by the enormity of the task. Just take it all in.
There will be challenges, printables, and lots of encouragement along the way!
As we begin, I want to let you know right from the beginning our purpose for learning how to cultivate a heart for motherhood. It isn’t so that we can be a great mom, it isn’t so that we can raise great kids, it isn’t even so that we can have strong, happy families. These things are all good, but the real reason we learn and study and grow in these areas is so that we can know Christ and display His Gospel in our lives for HIS glory.
Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ.” Philippians 3:8
And, listen, I read all the comments on this post. And I am right there with you. We are all weary. We have all messed up. We will all mess up again. But, hear this: There is grace for us.
Here is your assignment for today:
Print off this document, “Pouring out my heart to Jesus”. Go here to download it.
Grab yourself a hot cup of tea or coffee, light a candle, and turn on some quiet, soothing music. Look over the verses mentioned today and then write out your thoughts on your job as mom to Jesus. Write out your struggles, your failures, your pain, your joy, your dreams, whatever is on your heart. Just take some time to sit quietly in His presence and pour out your heart to Him. He is waiting to hear from you!
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